May 22, 2009

May 7, 2009

Medication malady


So there are two big problems I'm finding with my medication. The first, from the Seroquel, is that one side effect is an uncontrollable need to eat. Weight gain is very common on this drug at the dosage I'm at. I'm working very hard, working out every single day in one form or another, and I'm still only seeing very small results of working out so much. That's frustrating.

The other problem is that I want to try to get to bed at a reasonable time, so I take my anti anxiety drug with my seroquel so that I can be relaxed and get to sleep easily. Unfortunately, taking the stronger dose of my anti anxiety drug lets me relax, so much so that getting to bed when I should be going to bed suddenly seems like less of a big deal.

So getting my beach abs is difficult because the only drug ever made that helps me sleep makes me eat, and getting to sleep on time is difficult because I'm too relaxed to worry about going to bed on time. Side effects are annoying.


Please kill me


I'm now stuck in an hour long meeting on a subject I neither care about nor understand with people I wish I could throw off a building. And the annoying people are yelling into their phones. And the one bitch won't shut the fuck up for more than two tenths of a second at a time. I don't even know why I'm in this meeting.

It's times like these I wish I could kill people with my mind.