Please kill me

I'm now stuck in an hour long meeting on a subject I neither care about nor understand with people I wish I could throw off a building. And the annoying people are yelling into their phones. And the one bitch won't shut the fuck up for more than two tenths of a second at a time. I don't even know why I'm in this meeting.

It's times like these I wish I could kill people with my mind.

Imagine

A Perfect Circle's cover of John Lennon's imagine.

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

Starting over

After a lot of thought, I've decided to listen to the advice of my editor and rewrite my first novel. The whole thing. From scratch. Oy.

Yes, I'm really going to rewrite the whole thing. I've actually already started writing and finished the first two chapters. All things considered, it's going fairly quickly. While I say I'm rewriting the whole thing, I don't mean I'm making up a new story. The story is generally the same, and all the same characters will grace my pages, but I'm rewriting because, obviously after the rejection, something needs to change.

One of the biggest problems with my first novel, I think (as does my editor), was that when I started writing it I hadn't learned my own writing voice. I found it by the end, but the beginning of the novel has always suffered as I tried to keep it as close to its original form as I could. Though I wanted to keep what I could, ultimately I wrote it with a different style and no amount of tweaking could ever fix that. Starting over, using my old book as a guide more or less, I'm going to bring my book up to my new standards, and I think it will be better for it.

Of course, once I finish rewriting this, I'm going to have changed things. This could mean that I'll have to rewrite, or at least seriously revise, all my books. Or it could mean that when I finish my first novel and reread my second novel, I'll find that the voice sounds similar enough that I can ignore that and get back to trying to get published again. I'm not really sure.

All I know is I'm enjoying rewriting my book far more than I thought. I think it's been long enough that I can admit to myself that my first book, while it had good ideas, wasn't well written. I have the opportunity to fix that, and so I will.

It's still probably going to take forever and drive me crazy at points, but ultimately, I hope, it will all be worth it.

In several months anyway.

REJECTION WATCH!

Novel rejections: 1.

Short Story rejections: 1.

Agent rejections: 0.

Publishing: fail.

So my first submission to a publisher has been rejected. This is not surprising. Everyone gets rejected initially, and I am no different. It's unhappy, sure, but I'm really not that bad off. Given the craptacular state of the world, including the publishing industry, it's extremely hard to get published. This is all part of the process. It's not like I've stopped writing.

I've decided that, while looking for a literary agent, I'm going to adjust my focus to trying to submit short stories. Apparently, they're a better way to break into the industry than whole novels. If you've been following my writing blogs, you've probably seen my shorts slowly evolving from pieces of crap to less crappy bits (or you think I'm just a horrible writer). I haven't posted some of my better works because I'm going to be submitting them to different online and paper magazines.

As I submit to different places with short stories I'm sure I'll update with my new blog feature: Rejection Watch! I've already been rejected by two publishers, so let's see how high I can get that number! If I get rejected by agents, I'll count those towards my Rejection Watch as well. And, yes, I'm turning rejection into a joke, but it's much more fun to find this amusing then to actually get upset or care.

Worry ye not... I'll be published someday.

If you don't watch Castle you should be ashamed of yourself

Castle!

This is one of the best new shows ever. Aside from the fact that the main character, Richard Castle, is played by Nathan Fillion (that's Mal from Firefly), the show is impeccably written as if tailored to amuse writers. The basic plot of the show is that someone starts killing people using the scenes from Castle's books, and then Castle himself is called in on the case to assist Detective Beckett in finding the perpetrator. After helping with the first case, Castle then finagles his way into being a consultant with the NYPD to research his next book.

What makes this show so amazing is that Nathan Fillion is an extraordinary actor and he plays this part and makes Castle both incredibly likable and incredibly frustrating, making the interplay between Castle and Beckett all the more entertaining. All of the main supporting characters, including Castle's mother and daughter, are well fleshed out and great sources of humor. The show is very funny as well as clever and not entirely predictable. There hasn't been a show yet where I haven't laughed so loud I had to rewind a bit to catch the next piece of dialog.

Castle is on ABC on Monday nights at 10:00. I love the show and you probably will too. Check it out!

New toy

Behold! The Slacker G2!

I finally caved in and bought a portable music device. Still cheaper than an iPod, maybe a little more than your average MP3 player, but a reasonable choice all the same. Why? Because of the 4,000 songs I have on my G2 I paid for none of them. Not one. See, Slacker is a radio service, and since I can personalize it, I now have thousands of songs that I want to hear at my fingertips. Granted, I can just listen to exactly what I want, as I don't have the premium service for that, but at $4 a month, I think it'll be a worthwhile investment. Not only will I be able to listen to exactly what I want, but I also have a device that will update itself from wifi and from being connected at home with new songs and artists from the stations that I like.

Are there problems with the device? Sure. Every gadget has something wrong with it. I think the G2 is just a little too slow to react when I click buttons, and it does take a good 20 seconds to boot up after it shuts itself off. I think the battery life could be better. However, none of these are bad enough for me to really complain about them. The buttons work, they're just a tad slow, and the battery still runs for more than my full days work, so after I've conditioned the battery properly, I don't think I'll have any issues.

And, as I just found out, this thing gets really loud when it's asked to. Now I can't hear my coworkers bickering! I might do permanent ear damage if they don't shut up soon, but at least I can't hear them.

I takes what I can get. And in this case, I got a cool toy that's exactly what I wanted.